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For Everything There Is A Season - To Grandma

Your breaths come further and further apart.


We stand around your bed as the sunshine streams in the window with tears running down our faces. The door squeals as it opens and your sweet nurse enters with tears in her eyes, and she joins our huddled group.


Christmas carols play softly. You love Christmas so much... Sirens in the distance mark another ambulance's path and another life forever changed. You have touched so many lives. You are loved so much. A friend slips in and comes to your side, it is agony to watch the monitor as seconds pass with out a breath but its even worse not to watch. How did we get to this point?  I'm so tired.

I'll be home for Christmas... If only in my dreams...

Notifications pop up on my Facebook from friends and family sharing old pictures of you and words that though they are hundreds of miles away to be whispered in your ear.
There is a time for everything,



and a season for every activity under the heavens:


a time to be born and a time to die,

Waiting with you...

I watch your vital signs on the monitor.  I watch your life sustaining breaths grow further apart and more ragged.  I listen to phone calls coming in – final words being spoken and I wonder.  I wonder why do we leave things undone and unsaid.  Everyone with smart phone and I-phone in their pockets and purses but why are we all really so un-connected.  There is Facebook and Twitter and still mostly it is just meaningless. 

 I think for all of our so called connected-ness in our modern age I think we really are one of the most unconnected societies.  Sound bytes and 140 characters but where is the heart?  A check in from Starbucks and Chicago O’Hare but how is your family?  A photo from Chuck E Cheese and a day at the beach but are you really happy?  Can I pray for you? What is a burden you are carrying?  You had a cheese burger today and you like a vegan pumpkin pie recipe but what is your joy? What burden are you carrying that I can walk with you through and help you carry.  You see …

Friends And Savior

You have come on your lunch hour to see her.  I tell her you are here and she says “Oh for goodness sakes!”  I am surprised at her speaking because it has been so long since she has spoken. You look at us briefly then you are looking again beyond us at something we cannot see.  Then you begin to speak.  “Oh, oh how nice!”   “Pretty”  “Jesus – yes – yes”. 
Oh, if we could only see with our eyes what you are seeing.  Oh, the beauty of the hope that is beyond this life.  The beauty that you have gone to prepare for us.  How glorious it must be. 
John 14;1-3 "Do not let your heart be troubled; believe in God, believe also in Me."In My Father's house are many dwelling places; if it were not so, I would have told you; for I go to prepare a place for you."If I go and prepare a place for you, I will come again and receive you to Myself, that where I am, there you may be also.…

Revelation 21:20-22the fifth, sardonyx; the sixth, sardius; the seventh, chrysolite; the eighth, b…

I Will Stay With You All Of Your Days...

When he came back, he again found them sleeping, because their eyes were heavy.44 So he left them and went away once more and prayed the third time, saying the same thing. Then he returned to the disciples and said to them,“Are you still sleeping and resting? Look, the hourhas come… The room is dark now all except for the monitor flashing your vitals and a tv tuned to a hospital menu of television options. It is late and has been a long day.  A long few days really of not enough sleep and the strain of watching a loved one walk through terrible illness and the stress of death looming on the horizon.
 We girls head to the other side of the room, you know the one that is designated for family and sit in chairs to sleep or on that hard pull out couch.  The room is cold and we snuggle under too thin blankets.
You begin to struggle, you are in pain and cry out and suddenly I can’t just lay here and so I get up to stand beside your bed and help to calm you. Soon your other daughters gather…

Just My Reflection In A Window

Good luck... Two words from an E.R. nurse, from the other side of the phone. It's all I needed to hear and I knew how this trip would end... I walk through the house waiting for Mr. Cottage to arrive, so this is what an empty house sounds like, the gentle hum of  the refrigerater and the heater. If I listen really hard I can hear the rain hitting the gutter. So many memories reside in this house. My steps so loud as I pace through the living room for the hundredth time. Heart Failure, Kidneys shutting down the list goes on... They are calling for snow tomorrow.


I watch my reflection in the cold glass of the giant mirror like window 8 stories above the ground. Nurses huddle around the frail frame in the hospital bed. The frail frame that blood and memories tie me so tightly to. The family has all been called, several family members are looking for flights.


Familiar voices and unfamiliar voices echo through this room. So quiet as we all deal with what is happening in our own way. I…

Cranberry Orange Bread

I love the taste of the cranberries with the orange.  Sweet and sour together make this a great tasting bread. It is a breakfast bread and heavy like a banana nut bread and not a normal loaf of sandwich bread. 

Ingredients: 2 Cups Organic Unbleached Flour  3/4 Cup Organic Raw Sugar  1 1/2 Teaspoon Non Aluminum Baking Powder  3/4 Teaspoon Celtic Sea Salt  1/2 Teaspoon Baking Soda  1/4 Cup Organic Grass Fed Butter  3/4 Cup Organic Orange Juice  1 Organic Free Range Egg  1 Cup Chopped Organic Cranberries



Directions: I started off with a large mixing bowl. In a large mixing bowl I put my sugar, egg, and added the orange juice.  I mixed in the dry ingredients into this mixture and then added my chopped cranberries.  I did not use nuts in this bread but a slivered almond would taste good with the ingredients. Pour your batter into your bread pan. Bake at 350 degrees F. for 60 minutes or until toothpick comes out clean. 

The Redemption of Henry Myers Movie Review

The Redemption of Henry Myers


Hi guys! Get your popcorn ready because I have another great movie to share with you! my family and I recently saw The Redemption of Henry Myers Staring... Luce Rains, Drew Waters, Erin Bethea, Ezra Proch and Jaden Roberts.
Henry Myers has lived a rough life. Surviving life on the frontier however he can… even if he has to rob a bank to do it. After his latest robbery goes really bad and he finds himself  double crossed by his friends that leave him for dead, Henry is stunned to find God through the extraordinary kindness of a widow named Marilyn and her two children. With the influence of this family, Henry begins to search his soul.  He starts to look at his life and the choices that he has been making in his life to get him to this point.  When he gets to the place when he is beginning to understand his circumstances the bottom falls out again.  When his old friends come back he is faced with his past and his own sin nature.  He must choose between takin…