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When You Feel Like Saying "When" - Prepare To Stop

 I was 16.
 I ran a stop sign - on purpose.
The chain of events leading up to this caused me to want so badly to end it all. There were actually so many events that had gone on in my life by the age of 14, that it was really the cherry on top.
 I found out I was pregnant. That to me was a blessing.
Five months along we found out that it was a boy and he had a genetic disorder called Trisomy 18. It was a horrible diagnosis. The life expectancy was a year…If that. His organs were all over the place, and he was not doing well. They wanted me to abort. Imagine that! I wanted to give him a fighting chance.
 I felt him kick a lot. Played music for him, and read to him in my belly. I cherished every moment I had with him inside of me. I forgot the rest of the world spinning around me and just lived for him. I grew up a lot in those months.
Nine months along... he stopped kicking - for good. We went to the doctor and they told us that he had passed away. I was crushed. Even though they try …

When You Feel Like Saying "When" - For Everything There Is A Season

When -noun (a question or declaration as to a time of some occurrence)
Lord, when will this be over? How much longer Lord? Oh my gosh! If I had a dollar for every time I've asked Him that question, I could have paid cash for my car! I really thought this was going to be easy. My testimony is filled with some really horrible, desperate things so I thought sharing one of them with the world would be a simple thing. It hasn't. I've hit the delete button more times than I can count. 

Jesus has always walked with me but I've only walked with Him 15 years.  I used to cry out "why" more than "when".  When only came after learning to worship the Lord with my sorrow, knowing that He would make something beautiful out of it! I've walked through the horrors of rape, abortion and suicide attempts. I've struggled with poverty, homelessness, and being a single parent. Nothing in my life has broken my heart as deeply as my family has. My family is a puzzle i…

Ice Cream Sandwich

Ingredients:Ice cream (You can use whatever flavor you like, we used vanilla) Pizzelle (Italian Waffle Cookies) Carob Sauce*OptionalSandwich Number 1 (No Carob Sauce)
Directions: Take a scoop of ice cream and place in onto your cookies. Be really careful not to break up your cookie. Place the second cookie on top at a slight angle (again being careful not to break it). Its best to build these on the plate you intend to serve them on. 
Sandwich Number 2 (Painted Shell)
Make your Carob Sauce. Let it cool so that it begins to get thick again. Take a basting brush and brush the sauce over the cookies. Place cookies into fridge for a few minutes so the sauce will harden fast and not make the cookie soft or mushy. After it is hardened remove it from the fridge and place on a plate. drizzle about a quarter size circle of Carob Sauce in the center of the cookie, then take a scoop of ice cream and place in onto the Carob. Again being really careful not to break up the cookie. Slowly drizzle the…