When You Are Afraid To Hope

I think I am afraid to yearn for anythingLife has battered me so much.
The waves have swept me off my feet.
The Riptide has pulled me out into the deep.

My feet can no longer reach the security of solid ground.
I'm like a woman on thin ice- afraid to breathe.
Afraid to move too quickly

I am afraid to hope.
Afraid to dream of a future where the sun will once again rise.
Where laughter will once again bubble up from within me for I fear I can never again laugh.

Do you know what I mean?

I am here and afraid. I feel small and frightened by the chaos around me.

Like a tiny bird shivering at the presence of the towering human.
God forgive me, I'm afraid

Psalm 13:5-6 New International Version (NIV) 

But I trust in your unfailing love;

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