Hope Deferred Makes The Heart Sick

For as long as I can remember we have wanted more kids in the family. Through the years we've had several opportunities to adopt- but each one fell through.

The first one, a scared young girl. In the end her mother took her to get an abortion. Several months later a pastor friend introduced us to a woman wanting to give her baby up for adoption. But she ended up getting an abortion. Around a year later we were introduced to another woman, but this one too ended in heart break for our family.

It is so hard to keep believing- to keep hoping, when your hopes and dreams are continually dashed across the stones. All you wanted to do is curl in a ball and cry. You're angry, that you let your guard down and got hurt again. It stinks. So many emotions war for the spotlight. Days tick by... and your friends look at you wondering what the heck happened, while you morn the lives of the children you never met but had already become part of your family. As time passes you begin to heal, you learn to keep taking baby steps, one day at a time. To keep the faith, that one day the desires of your heart will fill your arms.

Ironically our dogs name is Faith. She is our constant reminder, have faith... On our wall there is a sign "Faith shines brightest in the dark". Keep believing, one day you will have the desires of your heart.

Hope deferred makes the heart sick, but a longing fulfilled is a tree of life. Proverbs 13:12

10 comments:

  1. Faith is like oxygen i think. It's necessary for our survival! I wish you all the best to come!

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  2. Beautiful words that touched my aching soul. **hugs**

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  3. Touching. Blessings

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  4. ((hugs)) friend

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  5. My heart hurts for you and I pray that you keep looking to Christ for strength, comfort, peace and guidance. #thepeonyproject

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  6. keep on looking up to God for your hope!

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  7. I have so many friends struggling with infertility. I shared one of their stories awhile back on my blog (http://thejollymoments.com/2014/04/18/hope-deferred/). Although her story is different, I pray it encourages you to never lose hope or faith. May God continue to strengthen you during this time. #thepeonyproject

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  8. I'm sorry to hear that this process has not been a simple one for you. Have faith and believe that one day you will welcome a new child into your lives, and they will fill you up with love and be worth all the waiting and pain.

    love.

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  9. Oh how my heart breaks for you. Keep having faith. God loves you.

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  10. I'm sorry the road has not been easy. I pray you will hold onto Faith xo

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